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I am Alina Tofan Grudnicki — a Romanian mother of three, a homeschooler, and the author of The Conscious Mother Series: six books written from the inside of a life, for mothers who are paying attention.

If you are new here, welcome. This page is the shortest way to find what you actually came for.

If your baby will not stop crying

Start with Silent Reflux in Babies — the honest, medically grounded guide to silent reflux and LPR, written for the mother whose instincts are right even when the room is telling her otherwise.

If you have lost the thread back to yourself

Start with I Found Myself Last — and download the free guide below, drawn straight from its pages.

If you are considering homeschooling

Start with You Can Homeschool — the honest case for it, and what a real day actually looks like.

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The Conscious Mother Series

These books are not about becoming a better mother. They are about becoming a more fully realised woman — and discovering that the two things are, at their most essential, the same. Each book stands alone. Together they tell one continuous story.

Book 1 — Silent Reflux in Babies
For the mother whose baby is in pain and whose instincts have been dismissed.

Book 2 — I Found Myself Last
For the mother who gave everything and lost the thread back to herself somewhere in the giving.

Book 3 — You Can Homeschool
For the mother holding the decision quietly, looking for the language to hold it steady.

Book 4 — Nobody Told Me
The honest book about motherhood, marriage, and the things loving people are too afraid to say out loud.

Book 5 — The Everyday School
What homeschooling actually looks like, on a real Tuesday, in a real home.

Book 6 — Conscious Mother — on its way.

See the full series on Amazon →

Where to find me

New writing lives on this site. I am also on Instagram @fullyheremama.

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It shall pass. You are not alone.

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